Monday 2/6/12

Sleep: 1:45 AM - 10 AM
Woke up normal
Ate breakfast
Vacuumed

Econ Class:
Can't focus, racing thoughts (like LOUD static)

This is stupid. I don't need help. Hypomania is bullshit, I'm fine. I just get depressed a lot.

It feels like I don't need to take notes because I'll remember it - I don't need to take notes or study b/c it's stupid and I'll remember it all anyway. I'm awesome! :)
I'm hungry.

I can't stop thinking about how stupid this class is. But this is only a voice in my head. I'm trying to remember that last time this happened, last time I felt this way about school and acted on it, I failed every course and my admission was revoked.

I'm feeling rather mean. But I can see the decrease in my notes but I just can't be bothered to pay attention - I only need to write down what he writes down anyway.

I'm not sure if this is a high or a low.

My thoughts are jumping like crazy. My handwriting is getting worse because it takes too much effort to write.

*yawn*

Boyfriend says when I'm up I'm childish and can't see consequences and have a lack of focus.
I wonder if that's true.
I wonder if it's worth fighting or not.

It's weird because I was fine a couple days ago. We were watching Horrible Bosses and it was normal.

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I went grocery shopping after class. I pulled up to my garage and sat in my car for 20 minutes because I couldn't find the motivation to move.

Boyfriend came over. He makes everything better. :)